"i feel like an oxymoron..."

i love 90's music, it makes me so happy.

just got out of the shower. today was laid back. i didn't get out of bed until after 11...mmm...i've been drawing sandwich parts all night, thanks to jack massey.

so today as i was trying to put my confusion into words, i realized just how quickly feelings can change. like something can go from being a complete turn-off to being sexy in 2 seconds, haha. kinda like that, it takes such a little bit for feelings to change. maybe it's just me, but it just works like that. i hate how i send mixed messages, but sometimes its because i'm unsure myself. and sometimes its because people read me too deeply...i'm not as deep as people seem to think i am. but anything i shared tonight is totally and completely true. no mixed feelings. like andrea so eloquently put it, "i feel like an oxymoron"...yes, yes i do. i also realized today i am HORRIBLE at explaining myself. it's impossible for me to put my feelings into words. so, i rely on andrea's little sayings to get my feelings out.

i procrastinated so bad today, it took me so long to finish these stupid sandwich parts. but, i guess that's part of what college is for...i just wish i could get better at time management. as andrea said, "idiot as charged".

goodnight lovers, i'm off to bed, finally...

20: holllly shiiitt....soo soon...
56: so much better than...
142: e-gads. we better be compatible, haha.