Friday, July 06, 2007

sorting things out

sometimes its hard to differentiate between whether i feel like i'm having trouble with my relationship because of me or the person that i'm in the relationship with. right not i'm not really satisfied with what is happening, but i'm not sure if thats just temporary or if its because we don't really fit well together all the time. i know that everybody has issues from time to time, and i'm not sure if i'm feeling justifiably unsatisfied. i don't feel special right now, i feel like an obligation or a problem instead, something that i'm not happy with. everytime he's not alone all of a sudden he becomes cold and i become a burden.

i still don't think i'm dealing well with the physical distance in our relationship. hopefully next year it will get easier as we get closer to one another.

just an update, i'm going to art center. i'm still hoping i made the right decision. i'm going to miss everyone at risd so much, but not really the school itself. and not rhode island at all. krit is coming tomorrow, it'll be nice to see someone from school again. and then i'll see isao on monday/tuesday and hopefully being around people again will help. i think the more busy i keep myself the easier this next month will be. that's my goal. to stay busy.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Happy 2007!

I'm only 1.5 months late, but whatever...

wintersession has been such a waste of my life. i like photo, but it takes so little time...
we're going to boston tomorrow to burn some money on therapy. saturday is winston's birthday "party," tuesday is deborah's teeth removal day, as well as bam's birthday party. wednesday i might take isao to the dmv to take his driving test, and then thursday.... I GO TO SAN DIEGO!!!!!!
yay, i'm a little excited.

i shot my photos today, so satuday i can develop. then sunday i can print, and monday i can reprint...

my art center app is going to go out by the end of this month. i promise.
i'm excited for spring term! and warm weather! it was 7˚ today, and fucking windy.... yay.


good night! love love

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

today was kind of a big day because...

1. democrats have control of the house!
2. mr. rumsfeld is no d-o-n-e
3. i got intro to photo for wintersession! at 11 pm on nov 8!
4. i skipped class. oops.
5. i realized that id is not what i want to do so i might transfer. seriously this time
6. i also realized, separately, that i have a hard time trusting people
7. its raining. i like the rain.

lots of realizations today. not all good, but just because its a big day doesn't make it a good day

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

left to do:

today:
1. finish packing
2. work on fin model
3. clean up! ew.

tomorrow:
1. get parking stub

my class was cancelled, my midterm moved up to 2 (instead of 4.15), and i realized i didn't really need anything at cvs. i went anyway. i can't believe i'm leaving tomorrow. the room is a mess! off to clean...

tomorrow's to do list:

1. class @ 11.20
2. study for midterm
3. deposit at bofa
4. get parking stub from parking lot
5. cvs
6. midterm at 4.15
7. work on fin model
8. finish packing
9. maybe work on disk?

aye, i'm going to be busy...

Monday, October 30, 2006

train of thought

school is so much work this year.

i have no free time.

my black walnut disk is totally uneven.

tomorrow is halloween and i don't have a costume.

my list of stuff to bring to san diego keeps getting longer and longer.

oh yea, i'm going to san diego on thursday!

that one deserves an exclamation mark.

or an "explanantion mark."

it is so windy here that it almost blew me over into the river today.

i wonder if the 11th floor has a workroom.

is it just because i want to make her jealous?

no.

maybe.

either way, i'm secure with my relationship.

at least until he brought it up.

good one babe.

i should go print.

later.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

no more paper models. no more, no more.

today was a long day. finally got some bondo, had to go all the way to pepboys to get it though. cody + brian came, cody drove my car. can you imagine two boys in the front seats of a vw bug convertible blasting hip hop in providence? oh yea, it was on. did pretty much nothing tonight though, should have been working. i'm thinking about heading over to the wood shop early in the am to sharpen chisels. we'll see. i told quincy and brian i'd go, so if i don't i'll probably never hear the end of it. shit. we'll its a good thing i don't have class until 1. mmm... night night.

our room

oooo pictures of it on the risd pics link

just about here

i'm now well into week two of school. our room is finally settled (though a bit messy) and i'm sort of kind of managing my time ok, at least for now. 15 west is really different from the quad. it's much quieter (especially considering we're on the 11th floor, out of 11) but feels more homey. even if it is slightly sterile. it's kind of sad though because i don't see some people as much as i used to, when we all lived "closer" to each other. for some reason even though it's just an elevator it feels like much more of a divide. this past week and a half has been slightly crazy. i haven't gone to bed before 2 am since i got here. i finally made it over to anton's place last night. it's nice, but i can imagine that he would get pretty lonely. especially because he's not that close. although his new 330ci shouldn't necessarily hurt the situation. aye... krit, saera, deboreee, bui, ji, and bona have pretty much lived here with us for the past week too. this is probably because we're the only ones with a tv (and after being "deprived" for a year... well you can imagine...). oh, and alice makes awesome curry. we somehow managed to fit 8 of us around a 4 person table. it is very tiny...i feel bad for all the architecture kids cuz they're all dropping out. we've got a bunch in id now, haha. i'm going to try to maintain this again, but we'll see how it goes. i'll start with yesterday:

wednesday is my light day, so after an hour and a half of modern britain, yawn, i basically had the rest of the day to...work. i spent my afternoon (from 3 on) in the id studio making a goddam 5x3x1 gridded box out of bristol. good times. it probably wouldn't have taken as long if i didn't keep getting distracted, and if quincy didn't keep threatening to blackmail me...but that's another story. so i finally got back to 15 west around 7ish, and even though i was hungry portfolio just made everything incredibly unappetizing. it turns out it was a good thing i didn't eat cuz ben called about half an hour later and invited me to go over to anton's with him and isao. anton and isao cooked dinner for us, so ben and i did dishes. it was only fair. those guys are so cute they put out placemats and appetizer plates and we all sat around and drank wine and pellegrino. so then after watching this dvd of hip-hop clips that anton put together, ben, isao, and i headed back to 15 west, during which time they proceded to argue like a married couple the entire way back. i stopped at deborah, ji, and bona's (where alice, bui, and krit also were) for a while, and then deborah, ji and i went to 7-11 for midnight snacks before coming back to our room to watch some trashy tv whilst reading trashing magazines. good times. so far, for id, i'm not that stressed. but i get the feeling it's about to get a lot worse...

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

mmm...

i go to school saturday.

i'm a bit confused.
and not about school.