before i go to work

before i continue on this horrendous rhinoceros, i thought i'd post. so in case i fall asleep mid-rhino, i'll be ok. i am in much better spirits today. not nearly as confused as i have been for...oh, 3 months now? cleared the air, got some things settled, it was kinda nice. i have a very happy future ahead of me, if things go "according to plan". which, of course, they never do. but in this case i really REALLY hope they do. i'm just really content. its a good feeling. even though theres this stupid rhino looming over me, i still feel like things will be ok. and that makes me happy. its amazing how much a mood can shift, just like that. i was so down yesterday, and kinda the day before too, though i can't really say why. but today i'm happy. its been a while since i could honestly say that. anyway, i must go off to these rhinos...boo. i'm gonna try to finish by 3. that's my goal. later lovelies.

12: ooold friends and a party down in nyc!
38: la familia and a home-cooked meal. yum yum
i promised i'd stop counting the other one. so i will. it makes it seem so much longer.